If you do not have the Heart to... then DON'T!!! F%£! you ALL!!

Received yet another 2 sms and 1 miss call. I dunno what kind of evil combination is this.

This time is after Njd Training.
Call and 1 sms from Terry Tay about the meet up on Friday. Got me excited. Only to drop my heart like a stone.
2nd sms from Colin:
They are disconnecting the life support tomorrow.
One short and simple mesg. I actually felt mad for a split second instead of sad. I do not know why am I angry for. I just cannot accept the fact that they are disconnecting him in less than 1 week. Why can't they wait some more?
But deep in me, I also know that any parents will not give the word until they have no other alternatives. Perhaps I just cannot accept the truth at that split second.

Went home immediately after training, tried to hide the tears as usual walking out the clubhouse. Contacted Apryl and Colin to confirm the details and proceeded to contact the rest of the Sec Sch classmates. Called Mic Chan first followed by ACK(who as usual cannot be contacted) and Angeline.....then the rest. I did not really feel like telling the rest but I'm sure that is the least I can do for my old friend; spread the word of his impending passing. To get as much people to accompany him before his final journey.

What a big mistake. 2 groups of chat on MSN was actually formed! Can you actually believe that!? And what is worse? they never ask anything significant. It's started for whateva reasons I cannot understand. Esp the second one. I told them that Haoming will be pulled around noon. No one believed me... keep quoting what Mic Chan and Ch ien said. For Fucking good god! Chi en? Of all people him? The someone who never even made it down to see him on sat, who only knows how to chicken out of situations? Chi en's info came from Mic Chan....And who do u think told Mic? All of you chee bye kias should know since sat. I told you all on MSN it NOON and what responses was on MSN?
"Can I come at 7-8pm???" x2 somemore!
"But I have to work tomorrow"

I could not stand it anymore immediately pulled out of the conversation.

Well....If you cannot come then just say so! We all understand. No need for all the political maneuvering SHIT!
I can see damn clearly now why I do not stay in contact with most of the secondary sch people now. Damn clear. In more ways than 1.
Well if I die, you hypocritic swines, you know who you are, need not come. I just might wake up in time to pull you in the oven with me!

I do regret some of the pranks I pulled on Haoming back in Sec sch but right now I feel a bigger regret.
Of telling the people who dun give a FUCK.
End.