A wakeup call to myself

This particular month has been relatively uneventful, both in personal and working life. Perhaps a calm leading to the eventual storm in the form of my long delayed commencement of study? One need not analyze too deep to know how restless I can be in times like this. Previously, this simian’s lifestyle must be perpetually filled end to end, ear to ear and over the brim with events/self fulfilling courses/ ego trips…etc.

In fact, social calendar along with my overall mental stability has been heading south since traumatic events starting back in April. Perhaps even earlier.

Good.

This peace is not without its merit. Reflections of the past showed that there is much to be refined.
Operation: Rebirth has been initiated. Waking up now.

If consideration of 2 equal choices has been made, no decision can be considered bad but only how you act upon the decision thereafter will decide your result.

4 years of indulgence in frivolous lifestyle has made me complacent about the things around me. Precious principles built around a solid foundation of lessons learnt has been thrown to the wind. Eroding every pillar of hope around me without my notice until everything comes crashing down. Only then do I notice myself piled up by the lies I have been living upon for so long.

I will dig myself out of this mess and I will start from the bottom again. This is setback will not hinder me once everything is set right. I am smarter than that.
I see I have been a slave to the wrong things, wasted so much for trivial pursuits and hiding behind convenient inexhaustible amount of excuses. Worse of all, I allowed it to go on for such a painfully long period of time.

Although it all sounds doom and gloom, but it’s not meant to reflect negative emotions. That would be against my new direction. On the contrary, this brief and withheld reflection will be the initial platform for launching my new life campaign.

Through this, many things I previously hold dear must be sacrificed. As a history and heritage appreciator, I too, must learn from the past. MY past.

Cherish them but loosen your fingers as the connection will only impede your growth.